So I'm back at work from this weekend. I would say over all it was blah. I had good times (cardinal game) but mostly bad/ frustrating times. I hate waiting on people. I hate being disappointed over and over again. One day things will get better. I always feel like I'm in a glass bubble and everyone else isn't in one and they are all laughing at me. Sometimes it's like someone is half way in my bubble and I think they are their because the want hang out but it turns out it's to laugh.

None of this makes sense and I don't really care, basically I'm saying I wish I felt like smiling again. I wish more than anything that the things that made me happy would make me happy again. I'm tired.. tired of feeling this way tired of getting older and getting shit on tired of worring. I wish I could be 5 again.